I see them everywhere. Things “normal” people don’t notice that c.r.u.s.h. me.
Today, my husband’s car doppleganger-an exact duplicate, right down to the funny color and very thin tires.
Parked in the grocery store parking lot.
Only I knew it wasn’t his immediately, because it was parked here:
The “fertile” car doppelganger if you will.
And upon closer look, you could see the baby seat through the rear window.
That’s all it took.
Seeing what his car should look like at this point. What his car deserves to look like.
It crushed me right in my infertile heart.
Mostly because I am really beginning to believe that is never going to be us.
Becoming Parents 
I know exactly what you mean- walking past the “Expecting Moms” parking spots at Target makes me want to scream. That should be ME!!! I’m so sorry you had to deal with that today- sometimes the smallest things just suck.
Ooh. That hurts. I totally get it. I would feel the same way if I saw my husbands car with baby paraphernalia (a strong possibility as he drives a Subaru wagon). I know it’s hard. Try to believe as much as possible. I know that’s hard to hear, but from a fellow infertile who is in an uncharacteristically positive mood right now, just try to believe, even if you can do nothing else. Hugs 🙂
So so sorry. The most innocent triggers can hurt so bad.
I also remember that scene from Up! that you shared in a post before this, and I remember that scene just so well.
Take care. Hugs.
iclw #39
If I ruled the world, the sign would say “IF parking” and then, hot men with chocolate would give you a massage as they drove you around on one of those little carts.
🙂
I want you to the rule the world in a real bad way!!!
I feel hurt every time I see the signs people put up in their yard that say “drive like your children live here.”